tick tick

today…this month…hell the last few
not in a good place

nothing really triggered this
no anniversary nor event

just…no one interested enough to share
the mile markers passing by
without comment
or celebration
nothing to make anything
…familiar

just existing is not living
and just living is not life
for to live is to…

does the universe even notice
if I go on here or pause?

I see a tree
taking up the same space as me
in the same state as me
as indifferent as me
cold and deserted as…

anyone got an axe?

cha oz
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